I hate doctors

[Gypsi]

I didn't get actual test results with numbers yet, but they upped my thyroid medicine.  It will have to do. I have no money or time to seek out a new doctor, and my choices are severely limited by my insurance.

I used to just pay cash for health care but I can't afford it this year.  I will suffer and die. Not a problem. So far as I know no matter how many great doctors anyone has, no one lives forever.

[Jen]

Good Grief Gypsi! I have stuff wrong with me as well, I've even had cancer and so have you. I'm not going to give up. Period!

Maya Angelou is one of my favorite poets, this is for you my friend 

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may tread me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Maya Angelou

[Gypsi]

I am going to enjoy life while I live and spending it in fear of disease or fear of anything is just not any fun.  I could give 2 hoots over the latest whatever.

Please understand if I don't check out before age 80 I won't know my own name or anyone else's anyway.

The disadvantage of watching multiple relatives die of alzheimers is I know what the end looks like.
Part of the tests I had run in January were genetics. I carry the gene. The more positive, active and learning, moving forward I stay, the better I can hold it off. I can hold it off a little with diet but more with being around positive people and not focusing on fears and diseases.  Got a new book: Goddesses Never Age.

I find spending 4 hours on the phone trying to find a second opinion doc and a few hundred dollars out of pocket plus a couple of thousand dollars for more tests much more negative than spending a few hours with a friend having fun, so I'm going with enjoying life.

To each their own. If you like doctors offices, hospital borne infections, sticks and needles and shaking fingers and living on chicken fish and vegetables to preserve every single minute of those doctors visits and nursing home time more power to you.

I have serviced aquariums in nursing homes, on the alzheimers floor, the one with the password to open the elevator.  Not going there guys,  but you do what you want

[Jen]

Atta Girl! In my research it is said to do brain excercises, crossword puzzles, work in community kitchens with people who have to put recipes together, read books that are a little too hard to understand, play the piano or learn how to. Stuff like that, I would imagine your koi pond business is very brain stimulating. Beekeeping for me is constant brain stimulation 

[Gypsi]

I added bees for the mental stretch, but am expanding off into permaculture now.  speaking of which 4 yards of dirt awaits me.  Have a good day Jen

[Jen]

Nice chat Gypsi, good day to you to 

[iddee]

My motto has always been, "I'd rather live 50 happy years than 100 miserable ones". I live for today, leave tomorrow up to the big guy.

[Gypsi]

I agree with your motto Iddee - always have.